What a week!

Well, I just dropped the kids off at the babysitter and I was too upset to go to school and work right away so I came home to do a blog. This has been a very rough week for me and for the kids as well.

The kids went to their new babysitter for the first time on Monday. Hunter was playing and Kira was laughing when I left. So, I thought all was good. When I picked up, Kira was screaming (she has an upset tummy I guess.) I held her and she calmed down and was find. Hunter was great at pick up that day. Tuesday, I had a conference in Andover, so my grandma watched them for me! Yesterday, I took them at 10 and once again, Kira was happy and Hunter wined a little bit. But, he was just saying that he just wanted to go outside. She said he was fine after I left. When I picked up, he was whining, "Where's mommy?" and Kira was content. This morning was HORRIBLE!! Kira was happy once again. She always gets to eat right before I take them so she is usually happy. :D Hunter just latched on to my leg and was screaming. I picked him up to give him a hug and he hugged me the tightest he has ever hugged me and didn't want to let go. When I pulled away, he was looking out the window and was crying. I feel like the worst mommy right now. I just want to go get them right now. I don't think he likes it there at all. By this time, I would think he would be getting better with me leaving him, but he's just getting worse. He's not sleeping at night anymore. He wakes up about every hours and cries for me to hold him. When I lay with him, he wakes up every hours just making sure I'm still there. That makes for some really long nights! This is how he has been since we started at he sitters. I don't know what to do. There are not very many options for daycare in this town and the good ones are all full. It's just so frustrating. I don't know what I'm going to do. I can't keep leaving him there if he cries all the time. It's killing me every morning to leave my babies anyways, and when he doesn't want to be there, it kills me.

I am trying to find a new place to go and it's so difficult! But, I just got a call from one that will have openings and I am going to meet with her tomorrow. Hopefully I can find something so I can get him started next week and hopefully have him comfortable before school starts. Keeping my fingers crossed on this!

Just needed to vent for a minute. Now, off to work in my classroom! :D Oh joy!